I got a bit of ‘alone time’ today and thought of sharing my present state of mind and life with all of you valuable readers. Motherhood is a joyous new experience and I am really looking forward to sharing this fabulous life changing experience with all of you.
Being a mother means major responsibilty. Just thinking of it used to give me goose bumps and honestly it was the last thing on my mind.
Life changes on a daily basis and when that maternal urge sets in there is no looking back. Just when my mind and heart got together and surged ahead full speed my body came up with its own issues. I was diagnosed with PCOS. It is then that the thought of never being a mother set in. It was terrifying to think that I might not be a mommy and at that point of time that was my only desire and dream. It took many many months of patience mixed with bouts of frustration along with endless trips to the doctor because of the health issues involved. When complications come they all come at the same time and by the dozen, but God is great and there is nothing impossible with him. He makes a way where there seems to be no way and what a beautiful way he made for Kapil and me. I conceived.
July 9th was when ‘she’ came into our world. Our little conception and God’s greatest blessing. Our Princess.
A part of me hated being tied down because it meant letting go of the previous life that my husband and I shared. Is there anyone in the world who doesnt want to be carefree? Well, here I was. I had to give it all up. Nothing was the same. Gone were the days and I guess that is why its called an experience because nothing lasts forever except memories. Memories of youth, being a spinster, then a lover and being the center of attention in a marriage.
I am on my way to recovery thanks to the support of my family. A big ‘thank you’to all of them. Everyday brings better mental, physical and emotional well being. I miss my outings at the moment. I am sort of confined to the bed until my stiches heal. There are a few other things. I have to be careful with my diet and I have to avoid spicy food and eating out because all of what I eat goes to the baby and she has to only get the best. I miss blogging and that means all of you lovely readers. Miss our chats and laughs and all the encouragement that we give to one another….but when my baby smiles, my heart skips a beat and my world is just flooded with happiness that makes every loss worthwhile.
Now a days women tend to choose their careers over their lives and pregnancy. Remember ladies, money will come and go, careers will come and go, fame, popularity, freedom all of it but your family and children are here to say in both good and bad. I don’t think anything can satisfy you as much as bringing new life into the world. Everything else is just a mirage in this materialistic and plastic world.Have you heard of that phrase ‘A child gives birth to a mother’? I never understood what people meant when they said “Motherhood is a womans new birth”. I guess it takes a mother to understand a mother and yes, it means nothing more than COMPLETE. It matters to have a loving spouse cause it takes two to tango and having a baby is nothing short of a never ending jig. A hug, a smile, a comforting smile from him just once a day is enough to keep me going cause time is of the essence once you have a newborn. Hours are reduced to minutes these days and things have changed totally. Previously, we used to get bored at home and look for things and ways to entertain us but now neither of us want to leave our baby…not even for a minute. Just looking at her keeps us entertained. Her smiles, her little yawns, her facial features when she’s dreaming, her little fist in the air …there is no end to it. Kapil and I share a bond now that is stronger than before and ‘she’ will only strengthen it. Together we will plan our lives around her and watch our princess grow, watch love grow……
What did you experience during your initial days of motherhood . Tell us, we’d love to know.